What If's?

What if you are pregnant?

What if you knew you're going to have a baby boy?

What if you mom called you to tell you your church will give you a baby shower by the end of the week?

What would you feel if your colleagues urge you to have a baby shower so they can give presents for your baby?

What if you are pregnant?

When I knew I was pregnant, I felt so much joy in my heart because last year I undergone miscarriage. It was not easy to let go and forget my first pregnancy. It was an abnormal pregnancy, because I had a blighted ovum meaning the sperm or egg cells are not fully developed. It's either the sperm doesn't have it's tail or an egg cell is not fully developed according to my sonologist. Last December while celebrating Christmas at home, there's a black butterfly flew inside our house. What I believe, once a butterfly flew near you or your house while celebrating any occasion it was one of your past relatives who wants to join you and celebrate even though they are in another world. Another event when it was my birthday, the same insect flew inside my house, I knew it's our little angel who wants to greet me. :) Rather than being sad, I did thank the butterfly for it's visit to greet me!

What if you knew you're going to have a baby boy?

We waited for few months to know the sex of the baby and the result was a "baby boy". According to my Obstetrician, it's not advisable to have more than three ultrasound examination unless prescribed and only if there are problems in your pregnancy. But since we are so excited and my colleagues wants to know what would be my baby's gender, we had more than three examinations. Before we knew his gender, he actually hide and position himself facing my back and hide his genitals from the machine's scope detector. When I had my monthly check up, I did tell my Obstetrician that my husband wants to know the baby's gender, she refused to give me request but since I don't have an ultradound examination on their records, she did gave me a request. (They don't have a record of an ultrasound examination because I also paid a visit on another clinic near my mother's house. ;) Well, then after knowing the baby's gender I am so excited to buy stuffs for the baby and I am also confused of thinking boy's name for the baby.

What if you mom called you to tell you your church will give you a baby shower by the end of the week?

It is my 34th week of pregnancy, meaning I'm on my 8th months. I haven't got any baby shower for the baby. I was actually planning to have one this Saturday and whoalla!, my mom texted me and asked me to call on their house to tell me something. She told me that they had a board meeting in our church at Gao, Quezon City and decided that they will give me a baby shower since there's one member, which is also pregnant and will be given a party. I was touched, cause due to my working schedules, I can't go to church and attend the mass since I also work for Saturdays. We are Adventists and we are not allowed to work from 6PM on Fridays until sunset of Saturdays. I know God has a purpose for giving me that party. My husband has a different religion but we make sure that we respect each beliefs.

What would you feel if your colleagues urge you to have a baby shower so they can give presents for your baby?

I felt so much loved and cared by these people. They are also excited to give presents for the baby as I am.

Although I have bought some stuffs for my baby, with a little help from my cousin Amy from California, of course I want more stuffs to have for the baby :) Thanks to her anyway, we are cousins but ever since they migrate to US when I was just a baby, we haven't seen each other yet she did send me money for the baby's stuffs! God Bless these people!

What more you can ask if you have family and friends like what I have, maybe just guidance and good helath cause you know that God is alawys with you at all times!